Going Veggie or not?

So how do I change myself?

At middle of night, someone said to me, Don't eat animal meat.
I got this message quite many times in past couple of years.

All through my life, I ate meat.
I specially love Yakiniku.  Sweet teriyaki flavored sauce. 
I love all kinds of meat.
I love seafood as well.

I couldn't believe vegetarian people existed.
No offense, but they looked super skinny to me, or that's what I thought.
I love animals, but I was able to create this invisible veil in my brain, between live animals and the meat packages, beautifully displayed in the Supermarket.

I love animals, since I was child.  I felt special bond with them.
I raised cats, mice, squirrels, bunnies, dogs, turtles, birds of all kinds, hamsters, lizards, fish, etc.
I picked up anything needed my help and attention, although I still refused to connect thtem, with meat that we were eating.

My niece became vegetarian when she was 14.  She told me to watch the video of slaughtering animals, I refused.  I was too scared.  Too afraid to know what people were doing, and may be scared to admit, that I was member of this unloving cycle of killing animal.
I knew deep inside that this was wrong, and it goes against every moral in my book.
So what the heck am I doing??
It was just too tempting to refuse good Shabushabu, or fried chicken or Kalua pork.

Both my husband and son was meat eater.
Plus people were telling me, you have to eat meat to get good protein.
Your child will not become tall, or able to build good body if you don't let him eat lots of meat,
and we have been hunting and eating them since beginning of our human history.
All these Words gave me perfect excuse to keep on eating them, like I was in trance.

Then, one day I got clear message in male tone voice.
"Don't eat animal meat. "  They recently also explained to me that I was once
Lemurian and lived in place called Muu, where Animals and Human lived together in Peace,
without killing each other.  I realized My true ancestor did not eat meat.

It took me about 4-5 years.  But now I am proud to say, I can stop.
I have not been eating them like 95 %.
( I eat vegetable from soup broth, my husband ate Beef nabe, or I occasionally eat them at
gatherings, when there is no other food and I feel bad to refuse. )
Pretty soon It will be 100%.
Because I have decided to change my life totally from all the temptation.
No wonder Jesus went into desert and Buddah went into the deep forest, 
That's what you have to do.  Cut yourself from all the temptation.
Go to Rural!  This is how my search began.